The time for promises is over,
the time for sweet words is past,
the present evolves bitter as ever
and no-one knows what will last
I've had my share of hope and pain,
I've seen it all and paid the price
and what is left of us tomorrow
depends on the falling of the dice

My feet plod through the old and barren desert of my mind
And once my fearful head is conquered, ten thousand lives are left behind
Only waiting for water and night
Only waiting to give up this lifelong fight

My eyes still blinded by confusion,
my mind upset - can't think no more.
Is this a wall I'm crashing into
or is it just an open door?
A door to freedom and to peace,
a gate to valleys green and fresh
or is it just a door that traps me
in this prison of my flesh?

Embarking on an unknown voyage, hoping to be freed
The mist is thick, the waves so high, I fear the endless deep-dark sea
Only looking for harbors and land
Only looking for life-signs and solid sand

After thirty years still trying to get out of this cage
the thoughts a plague, the body breaks
and who will cure me? Maybe you,
if you are able to break through
the walls, the fences without doors -
who has the power, who the force?
Not me,
o no, no certainly not me

The hands stretched out again in vain
Here are again the sleepless hours
And who is killing, who is killed?
Who is eaten, who devours?
It's me that's killing me again,
I just drown myself once more
for you're not guilty, innocent,
you're just trapped behind my door

Will we succeed or will we falter,
will the chaos stop
or will we sink into oblivion,
will the final curtain drop?
Only hoping for blood in my veins
Only trying to wash off these age-old stains

After thirty years still standing between love and rage
The mind a stage for solo-plays
The lights switched off, the people gone,
the actor sings his only song
while there is no-one left to listen -
why can't he stop, who would miss him?
Not me,
o no, no certainly not me